All roads lead to Rome

Suddenly and for nothing, I entered an old blog at tianya, which was set up in 2004, for the interactions between nicole and me.

Those articles reveal, at that time, nicole, as an internet-friend of mine, chatted with me nearly everyday. We talked much, from life to study. Very funny, we even wrote english essays and learned economic law together. 

Reading them, I'm often amazed by my own words and thinkings, which I've forgotten for a long time. It seems that I look back, pick up some memories, and find something new now. How time flies, it's almost 5 years. Unfortunately, some aims are still far away from me, and some aims haven't been meaningful to me. 

Anyway, it's a fun to know how navie you have been on your way of growth.

Yesterday, we were  worried for tomorrow, and now it is just today we live without worry, however, today we are still worried for tomorrow. So funny.

It's said that the EXAM of this year will be held in Aug, one month ahead.
I've heard it long ago, unfortunately, I had no courage to face, not only for it is the LAST chance, but also for I thought it impossible to grasp.

It's mid March now, and it's time for me to set a start; however, why should I do?
I have no belief and ideal in career and future, why should I be bitter for such a boring and meaningless thing?

Someone identified the person like me is a by-stander of life, yes, that's right. All the time, I have no talent to really enjoy life. The only thing I did most is to complain and get in a loss. To some extent, my heart is far away from reality, lacking of interest in real people and things.
It's wrong and wasting. 

And the key is, why should I do a thing beyond my IQ? shit!

I love rock  n'roll, of coz, just pop rock.
Right now I‘ve heard a song of this sort, and  I've never seen such a positive english lyrics (for I know few).
Its name is " if everyone cared...", by nickel back, a band name I've never heard.

Suddenly, I'd like to quote it for eason. Just miss him, not meaning anything serious.

"from underneath the trees 
we watch the sky 
confusing stars for satellites 
I never dreamed that you'd be mine 
but here we are 
we're here tonight 
singing Amen I,I'm alive 
singing Amen I,I'm alive 

if everyone cared and nobody cried 
if everyone loved and nobody lied 
if everyone shared and swallowed their pride 
we'd see the day when nobody died 

I'm singing 
Amen I,I'm alive 
Amen I,I'm alive 
and in the air the fireflies 
our only light in paradise 
we'll show the world they were wrong 
and teach them all to sing along 
singing Amen I,I'm alive 
singing Amen I,I'm alive 

and as we lie beneath the stars 
we realize how small we are 
if they could love like you and me 
imagine what the world could be "
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I really love the songs giving people power and belief, both melodies and lyrics.

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Recently, I focused on music again. Maybe it's ridiculous, for its start was a boring Music Award Ceremony of TVB, faint.
Yesterday, I sufered youtube,watching the singing of Joey by accident. 
She sang the song "painly love", with a female newcomer. I remember nicole has told me that she performed very well and had made great great progress, compared to her level before. After watching, I have to admit it.
I have no feel on Joey, all the time; however, I remember she has expressed herself as a girl passionate for music long long ago. At that time I thought it nothing, but now, I believe she was serious. No matter how bad the scandals about her are, I believe this belief of hers is real.  
Maytbe, if you cared, and you are alive. 

A few days ago, I worte on my chinese blog that eason hasn't disappointed me on something about life, and that's partly why I like him. Frankly speaking, I know nothing for sure about him, that is to say, all about his good qualities are out of my guesses or even imaginations. But as long as he keeps loyalty to his love for music and singing, I could accept him in the largest range. In such a complex and cunning world, I may have no ability to confirm anything, except for the belief like this. 
People always say they can't identify whether others are loyalty to them, in fact, they can of coz if time allows. Just like me, I still know nothing personal about joey, but I'm sure she really cares singing, although she isn't a genius at all. And until now, that's also the only thing I can be very very sure about eason.
It's said that your sound is bad again now. Yes I know, I heard, on countdown, on ceremony. But I believe you can get through because you care, right? 
Wait for your new album and shows. add oil. 

Yes, I deleted all essays about IBT of this blog, but it doesn't mean that I'll close it down; Instead, I want to make it reborn.

Certainly, this is still an english blog, which contains my articles written in english. And I will write freely on any topic in daily life. God knows how long I can persist, however, I will do as soon as I have a desire, just like now. 

What stimulates me?
Just now I watched a piece of TV news by accident, which said that some employers of Hongkong's companies made a promise that they wouldn't fire staff in future. To solidify their words, they even signed some contracts. I know it signifies nothing, especially in such a terrible economic environment. If the crisis becomes worse and worse, no one is able to prevent a series of  bankruptcies and unemployment. But still, I was moved by this event.

According to the news, this movement was initiated by some small or moderate size enterprises in retail industry, and HK government suggested those big ones to join. Maybe it was factually organized by government, whose purpose is to boost the confidence of citizens and stabilize whole the society. It is not important; what touched me was that HK people demonstrated their traditional feature once again. When the spokesman of the employers expressed that they wished to make the situation better by this means and they must ally to face the crisis, it was the first time I felt totally positive atmosphere from the news of this sort ( of coz it may be because I read little ). To some extent, it differs from the actions of government, because it gives audience more feel of initiative and the hope aroused by common people themselves. 

The transparence of medium is crucial, that is to say, it is absolutely right for media to disclose the severe truth of this crisis; however, when we read too much negative, it is inevitable for us to be getting down and down, losing energy to solve problems. Anyway, life continues, and hope is eternal. In such an environment, positive spirit always makes people happy and comfortable. I'm therefore inclined to read some more news such as today's. In theory, such a huge and global economic crisis may last for several years or even decades, it is unfortunate for us to encounter it in our lives, for we may lose opportunities to do many things and have to give in to life. With none but this spirit, we are possible to go through these difficulties. After all, when one thing gets worst, it is the very beginning for rebirth. 

( OMG, expressing myself in english is one of the most painful things in world!!! )